it’s taken me 50,000 separate wrecks to get here and
I’ve learned absolutely nothing. As I’m standing here alone,
upright and motionless, I’m drowning in her sea.
The rising and sinking of every consciousness I’ve ever known
now detached and disconnected. The endless cycle of idea and action,
endless invention, endless experiment, endless hopes and endless
And I thought all I needed was just one breath to stay
afloat. For me it was like… like the breath, the last breath, the last breath
that I never wanted. Any of this.
I’m moving forward.
I never thought that this would
capsize, but this isn’t a boat, it’s a coffin! And now I’m moving forward.
Into the sea… into the great sea.
So I began with the end in mind.
The cycles of heaven, 20 centuries gone by, come home.
I’ve fallen three miles now… and still I can’t shake this dragon,
but the end is coming like a flood. This is going to be a year for
growing and the greatest amount of forgetting. My sea is drying, but
death is a doorway,
and at the very root of me I know this.
It’s the greatest reminder. What a broad world to roam in,
what a sea to swim in, so I begin with the end in mind.
you know what? im retarded! i wasted four years on a girl who didnt care about me whatso ever, the money i spent the trips i missed the relationships i lost. all because of her. then i still happily take her back expect a small amount of devotion . I mean the reason i went to the college i did was to be near her. But i dont mean anything to her (besides someone who bought her things) you pretended you cared and i chose to think with my heart. YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME! ……